Monday, April 21, 2008

Life is a Paradigm Shift

I wasn't sure what I was going to use this blog for when I first started it, and I'm still not totally sure but for now it can just be the place for thoughts to go. I'm not sure who (if anyone) even reads my blog but I've decided that it doesn't matter if anyone reads it, it's a place for me to get my thoughts out of my head.

A lot of things have changed for us in the last 5 years, more than changed in the previous 20 years we have been together.

I got laid off from my 20 year job in 2002 and I started Beaker's Stained Glassworks then. I opened the studio on Lakeshore Blvd West in Toronto July 1st, 2002.

During this time, unknown to me, my hubby was scoping out this property that he had been watching for 3 or so years. We went and looked, fell in love, listed our big house in the city and moved our three sons (12, 14 and 16 at the time) 100 km north to near Dundalk, Ontario. The moved occurred at the end of November 2002 but only I moved up here at first (with Buddy). We let the kids finish out 2002 and have Christmas at school with their friends and all that in the city and then moved them up here. We still had the house in Mississauga until April 30, 2003 so the move was painless. We just moved a bit at a time.

So now we live on a 200-acre grain farm in Melancthon Twp just southwest of Dundalk. We have a tenant farmer who has crops here every year. He's a great guy and I love to see the stuff growing.

I was a life-long smoker. I tried to quit on a number of occasions but failed each time. In January 2004 I made the decision that I would quit for good during that year. I went to see the doctor in Mississauga and he gave me a prescription for Zyban. Well, it worked for me! I've now been more than 4 years cigarette smoke free!! That really feels good to say that now...I'm SMOKE FREE!! I get sick less now and hardly ever get colds anymore! Yeah, I gained a little weight with quitting but I was already grossly overweight.

That brings me to the big changes that started in November of 2007. I decided it was finally time to do something about the 100 excess pounds my poor old body has been carrying around for just WAAAAAAAY too long (more than 20 years!) and I joined Herbal Magic in Orangeville.

Well, I must say that it is going VERY GOOD! As of last Saturday (April 19th) I am down 60 pounds. Yup I said sixty....the big six-zero!! Sixty pounds gone forever!! I can feel the energy coming back, my knees don't hurt anymore, my ankles aren't crying out in pain and my feet finally don't feel like someone's driving metal stakes into them!! My clothes are literally falling off me! TeeHee, giggle, giggle. I feel soooooo great!!

The years and years of chronic depression are fading. I've been battling it for a long time. I'm not a pill taker (well, other than the Zyban that helped me to quit smoking) so pharmaceuticals are out of the question so it just kinda got worse and worse until I felt myself doing a slow crash in late October of last year. I am so thankful that I have the most supportive and giving husband anyone could ever ask for. I love him so much.

This was just a quick blubbering from me. Like I have said repeatedly, I'm not sure what this blog should be used for. I'm not sure if I want to just have a separate blog for knitting stuff or what. I guess the last thing I need is another page to maintain online :-S

Well, I really should get back to the laundry. It's a very windy day here so stuff is drying VERY quickly today. Really, what smells better than fresh laundry on the line??

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